Feeling lost - footprints in the snow.

I dont know what else to do. Fully txt my three closest (or so i thought) friends. saying. look i really do need someone to talk to. my heads spinning. have had to force myself to do the things i had to do today. found myself not caring what happens or wether or not i do said jobs. feel drained and yet dont want to go bed. as know i wont sleep. feel sick and nervous about going to work tommorow. partly as am expecting some sort of grief about having a week off. even if its not strong i am not sure i can even take a joke tommorow. am determined that there wont be tears but last time i said that i ended up bawling in front of three members of senior management. plus going to work means seeing two of three of the friends. and am going to feel like yelling. HELLO? I NEED SOME HELP OVER HERE. PLEASE DO SOMETHING??? just feels like nobody can be bothered with me. just want to talk to someone. is that to much to ask..? to talk over my assessment day with. one day to go.. and havent so much as mentioned it to anyone .. my friends have known for over 3 weeks that it is coming up. and yet not one of them have had a spare 5 mins .. and yet. always make sure i make time for my friends.. its okay on there terms.. am scared of the powerful and frankly out of control feelings that i am getting right now.