Migraines, LSD and God

Migraines are one of the biggest reasons I have become reliant on pain killers, I have not taken any pills in 13 days, and havent wanted too until the threat of a migraine began moments earlier! I hate them, they last anywhere from 8 hours, to 3 days and I have had them since I was a child. A couple vicodin or percaset and I would be fine in 30 minutes or less, but since like a Lay's potato chip I cant just eat one I will have to endure my migraines. I no longer want to waste my life and money on tiny pills that have consumed my existence for the last 4-5 years. It is hard to believe it has been so long, but the condition of my life only reminds me of the wasted time I have spent alone, fucked up and probably many times, close to death, and without a doubt unconcious, literally, alone, thinking I was in bliss. when in reality I was escaping feelings, emotions and resposibility. I did take lsd last week at a concert, and believe it or not, it was the smartest thing I have done in a long time. Although Im sure it can be destructive, taken as a sacrement, in the proper environment it does help one to realize, god, the creator of this world and ourselves, is always with us. God loves me at my worst, and is proud when Im living in balance. Mind you I have not been in balance for quite sometime I was reminded of the joy one can feel when my intent is to be love and feel love.I will try to live every day with the intention of being good