Give yourself a break ...

Very recently I moved across the country to join my husband in Winnipeg. I mistakenly thought that it wouldn't shake me as I had just moved back from the States therefore, I was "used to moving". It is true that, with my husband's help, I've become quite good at wrapping dishes, taping boxes, and keeping an inventory of what we've got and where it is. We are veterans of U-Hauling it ourselves and the rather tricky business of hiring and negotiating with movers. I have also now experienced traveling with an animal (thank goodness that Vincent is such a patient flyer). I told myself that because I had made a big move before, it would be easy this time. I projected onto myself exactly how I would feel and behave when I arrived. It was certainly how I wanted to feel and act; proud and confident and certain. The pressure that I had placed on myself even before stepping onto the plane was too much and a perfect set-up for disaster. It was also completely unrealistic. My mistake was to ignore what I already know, what I have already learned based on experience; I find moving difficult. Finding new friends, finding a job, learning the bus route, finding the coffee shop, etc. Even navigating my way around the downtown YMCA branch was unsettling. I enjoy the unfamiliar, but only in small doses. I envy those that can take change more in their stride and embrace it. I take a little longer and find it a little harder. It doesn't mean that I'll stop working on it, but I hope that I can be more patient with myself. If I can stop telling myself how I "should" be and begin to accept how I am feeling ... this process might go a little smoother. Please try to give yourself a break today :)