When life feels extremely heavy it can be a struggle to keep moving in the right direction. Simply getting out of bed in the morning feels like an overwhelming task. But reminding yourself of one thing as you navigate each of life's ups and downs can be profoundly impactful. Even during the darkest moments, there is always something for which to be grateful.
In November of 2019, I moved to Arizona where the mountains and desert landscape are right outside my window. Before that, I lived in Florida about 10 minutes away from the Gulf of Mexico's turquoise ocean and sugar-white sand. I always feel the most alive and at peace when I am outside, so it stands to reason, nature is my first line of defense in eating disorder recovery.
Abandonment issues are probably more common than one would expect, especially for recovering addicts. The fear of abandonment, attachment issues, a history of bad breakups, a difficult fmaily dynamic, and many more unfortunate circumstances can all lead to a disdain for abandonment. In my addiction recovery I have noticed that the real or perceived feelings of abandonment can lead to some really challenging addiction triggers for me. 
About 12 ½ years ago, I was hospitalized for suicidal ideation in the inpatient psychiatric ward of my local hospital. Suicidal ideation is when you are thinking about suicide a lot but don’t have a plan to actually harm yourself. Still, I felt I was in danger, so I asked my fiancée to drive me to the hospital.
As the COVID-19 pandemic stretches on, living in its shadow has gradually become more and more familiar to us. But familiarity hasn't made any of it easier to live with, especially not those of us who were already struggling with our mental health prior to this year. Recovering from self-harm during a pandemic isn't easy—but it is possible.
There are precious few things to be optimistic about when one is depressed, so you must be thinking I'm cuckoo. Well, allow me to explain. The way I see it, nihilism is a school of thought which believes that life is meaningless. Needless to say, that's a depressing point of view. Optimistic nihilism is therefore a brighter outlook than mere nihilism as it proposes that since life is meaningless, we are free to give it whatever meaning we choose.
Physical health and mental health aren't separate concepts. Body, brain (the physical organ), and mind (our thoughts, feelings, sense of self, and much more) are deeply interconnected. To care for one requires us to care for the others, and by tending to all of them, we can function well despite any obstacle in our path--including anxiety. Use these four simple health tips to keep your whole self healthy so you can stay calm despite anxiety. 
Some of you may have noticed that I didn’t anything on this blog throughout most of August and the beginning of September. Last month, I made the conscious decision to walk away and take a break for the benefit of my health.
November 28, 2014, I made the hardest decision of my life. I left my husband and son so I could get well. I'd been sick for almost four years with what started as prenatal depression and ended as the deepest, darkest postpartum depression I could imagine. I experienced constant daily suicidal ideation for years. When I lost my ability to eat and sleep, I reached the end of my resiliency. Note: This post contains a trigger warning.
In this video blog, I'm sharing my tips for grocery shopping in eating disorder recovery. I know how stressful shopping for food can be for those of us in recovery; particularly people in early recovery who are still trying to form healthy, nurturing relationships with food. Over the last decade, however, I've developed some strategies to make grocery shopping not only easier but even a source of joy.

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I have removed myself from therapy too.. I let my alters take over more than I'd like to say. We didn't want to be cured.
I really liked this read, everything you had to say really came as a comfort.
Binge eating had always been a problem of mine. Even more so because I suffer from thyroid problems. It's so nice to know I am not alone in this.

Lately I have been trying the Custom Keto Diet and really seeing the difference. However reading blogs and post like this really keeps me going.

If anyone would like to try with me here is the link.
Krystle Vermes
That must be extremely frustrating, I'm sorry to hear that. I recommend getting grounded whenever possible, perhaps with some fidget toys or through meditation.
Tanya J. Peterson, MS, NCC
Hi Elizabeth,

If you feel extra stress or have negative thoughts, worries, or emotions when you don't know what is going to happen in a given situation, you might have uncertainty anxiety. ("Uncertainty anxiety" isn't an official anxiety disorder or diagnosis. It just means that someone's anxiety is caused or increased by not knowing what to expect or not being guaranteed a certain outcome.) If you experience anxiety or stress, start to tune in to it. Notice when you experience it the most. If you notice increased symptoms in times of uncertainty, then this uncertainty might be a cause or contributing factor. It is only a problem, though, if it is a pattern (it happens often when you're faced with any uncertainty) and if it interferes in your ability to do what you need or want to do. Talking with a mental health professional can help you sort out the cause of your anxiety, and once you know the cause, you can work on a solution.
It’s hard and my alters are getting very unhappy and crazy and weird half of my alters have been Doing things sexually,trying to protect me from outside dangers,Protecting my parents
Among other things and they keep showing me dreams of how they act if I didn’t set restrictions