Bipolar And Working Through Your Fear of Failure
I've experienced a fear of failure for months now, as my final semester of university quickly approaches. I have been freaking out about taking my most dreaded (and difficult) class during my last semester. If I didn't do well, my graduation would be delayed, and to me, I would have succumbed to my fear of failure (How To Overcome Your Fear Of Failure). It would be the end of the world to me.
For days I felt as if a huge rock was sitting on my chest, pressing down and preventing me from breathing. I felt guilty and inferior to everyone else – no one else seemed to have the same difficulty as I did with this class – and I began fearing the worst. I just knew that I would soon fall into that usual pattern of procrastinating any work for fear or failing, and staying in bed because I just couldn't face real life.
Fear Of Failure Was Unfounded
I got my first exam back and received a B+. I was actually disappointed. I felt like I had done better than that, but I still couldn't believe that I had done it (even after a week and a half of studying). But then, on second thought, I felt so accomplished and like I could do anything.
I reminded myself of a few things:
Always know that you're not inferior to everyone else! You got yourself into school, remember? You worked hard and showed that you can work hard. You have your own strengths and weaknesses that are different from everyone else. Celebrate these things – they make you unique.
What do you like to do when celebrating your accomplishments? Has your fear of failure ever proven true? What do you do when you need to pull yourself up and look on the bright side of a weakness or failure? Share your ideas and stories!
Poe, A. (2013, October 1). Bipolar And Working Through Your Fear of Failure, HealthyPlace. Retrieved on 2022, August 15 from https://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/bipolarvida/2013/10/celebrating-your-accomplishments-and-failures
Author: Alexa Poe
Treatment-resistant major depression, generalized anxiety disorder, PTSD, borderline personality disorder. I made it through college with a nursing degree and have worked as an RN on and off for a total of 13 years. My big BUT is I'm 50 now so I've only worked 1/2 the years I have had the degree. Gotta stop doing that.
Hey there! Thank you for sharing!
Congratulations on all of your accomplishments. I know that that takes incredible hard work and dedication. Don't beat yourself up over only working half of the years you've had the degree -- it's a great accomplishment nonetheless, and you should definitely be proud!
Take care and I hope you're well!