Borderline PD Mood Swings: A Personal Insight

April 30, 2024 Karen Mae Vister

Living with borderline personality disorder (BPD) often means grappling with borderline PD mood swings that can swiftly turn my world upside down. When these BPD mood swings hit, thoughts become tangled in cognitive distortions, and black-and-white thinking takes hold, making it difficult to see shades of gray or to check the validity of my assumptions. In other words, BPD mood swings are a rapid descent into a world where worst-case scenarios feel like certainties.

Borderline PD Mood Swings: Lost in Translation

Explaining my BPD mood swings to loved ones who don't share the same condition can be a daunting task. The speed at which emotions shift can feel impossible to convey. This has left me feeling isolated and misunderstood. Borderline PD mood swings are what I imagine it's like to be thrust into an alternate reality where familiar landscapes suddenly seem foreign and unsettling.

Even moments of joy can quickly sour with the slightest perceived criticism or misstep from a loved one. A seemingly harmless comment can trigger a shame spiral, plunging me into a whirlwind of self-doubt and emotional turmoil.

Perhaps the most challenging aspect of living with BPD mood swings is the normalization of these intense emotional fluctuations. What may seem chaotic to others is simply the default setting for those with BPD. Navigating everyday life, particularly interpersonal relationships, becomes a constant struggle against the tide of shifting emotions and distorted perceptions. I find myself wishing my loved ones could experience a day in my body so I didn't have to explain my moods in plain and trite phrases. Simply saying I feel sad doesn't cover the amount of pain I'm in during a BPD mood swing.

Borderline PD Mood Swings: Craving Love, Repelling Comfort

Underlying these BPD mood swings is often a deep-seated yearning for love and validation stemming from unmet needs in childhood. However, when faced with expressions of care and concern from others, individuals with BPD mood swings may find themselves recoiling, their instinctual response being to withdraw rather than embrace the comfort offered.

When a friend notices a change in my mood and extends support, instead of embracing it as an act of kindness, I often find myself overwhelmed with shame and discomfort. The vulnerability of having my emotions observed and acknowledged triggers a defensive reaction within me. I'm working to unlearn my instinctive urge to evade questions like, "Are you ok?" and to perceive these moments as gestures of care.

Living with BPD mood swings is like surfing through a storm on a leaky raft: you're constantly balancing between sinking and riding the waves. It's a journey marked by peaks and valleys, breakthroughs and setbacks. Recognizing my life as it is now has been crucial. The people in my life genuinely want to understand and support me, which is a stark contrast to the emotionally neglectful environment I grew up in. While navigating these complexities can be challenging and sometimes painful, I'm giving myself credit for not only riding the waves but settling into these waters and staying on the path to healing.

APA Reference
Mae, K. (2024, April 30). Borderline PD Mood Swings: A Personal Insight, HealthyPlace. Retrieved on 2024, July 20 from

Author: Karen Mae Vister

Karen Mae Vister, author of her blog, Over the Borderline, dedicates her work to providing valuable content and support for individuals on the path to recovery from borderline personality disorder. Find Karen Mae on Instagram and her blog.

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