Blunt Clumsy Nuts

I've noticed I'm becoming more blunt .. on occasion. I am more able to sit in therapy and ramble off an entire list of embarrassing facts without timid hesitation. I think my recent candid communication style can be attributed to the journey of self discovery. It must be an ongoing thing. Last year at this time I told myself I was finally starting to get to know myself. heh. Well now Deja vu. And I say on occasion because there are still times when I cannot seem to have the confidence to verbalize a meaningful thought. Let's see when does this happen... oh yes, it happens when I am talking to a certain friend of mine. He doesn't know how strong and confident I am. He doesn't know that underneath the layers of patient femininity is a bold solid woman. What he must be seeing is a goofy, awkward childish girl. I'm trippin' stumblin' flippin' crumblin' clumsy 'cause I'm falling in love. But wait. How the hell? This is someone I met online. He won't talk to me on the phone. I've seen photos and talked with him over yahoo IM. Never heard his voice, never looked into his eyes, never smelled him. We've only known each other for a couple weeks maybe? Plus, he seems to want other girls while I'm a one man type of woman. So anyway...This is nuts lol.