Eating Disorder Recovery: How One Woman Found Freedom
I went on my first diet in 2000. I lost a lot of weight but grew disturbingly obsessed with food and dropping even more weight. I stopped going out, I lost friends, I refused to eat out at restaurants and my weight plummeted to a new low where I lost my period and had to be hospitalized.
My Eating Disorder Recovery Story
The years that followed saw my diet and weight loss obsession increase, but I started to lose the control I once had. Binge eating started - first it was a monthly one day off, and then increased to a weekly "treat." Eventually it was a daily happening that I had no control over. I gained a massive amount of weight and was unable to stay on any diet that I tried.
Desperate for Eating Disorder Recovery
My personal rock bottom was knowing that I would die if I continued to live this way. I knew that there would be no way I could have a child, a relationship, a job, or care about anything other than food and my weight.
I wanted to live - to be able to enjoy life, to go out, to travel, to have a relationship without constant thoughts of what I was and wasn't going to eat, how much weight I was planning to lose and calculating how many hours I would need to spend at the gym to burn off the excess calories.
How I Found Recovery from an Eating Disorder
- I saw therapists.
- I talked about about my circumstances in support groups.
- I wrote in a journal.
- I learned to meditate.
- I asked for help when needed.
I also had to move away from the dieting mentality and towards health. I knew that every time I tried to heavily restrict my eating, the result was more binge eating and self-hatred. I had to change my relationship with food, to view it as non-threatening and to trust my internal hunger signals.
I now consider myself recovered from eating disorders and a healthy, intuitive eater. I eat food that I actually like, I have a healthy body, and I exercise because it makes me feel amazing.
I hope to help others who are struggling by passing on the message that complete eating disorder recovery is possible. I was always trying to find someone who had been through the same hell as me and had recovered to a point where they had a healthy relationship with food, no longer obsessed and controlled by it. I do live this way and I hope to reach others who are struggling and let them know that they can too - there is a way out.
Video on Eating Disorder Recovery
Unfortunately our eating disorder recovery video interview with Nina is no longer available. Visit I Fully Recovered from Anorexia and Bulimia for alternate videos. Visit Nina's website for more about her experiences with eating disorders and recovery.
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Gray, H. (2010, December 15). Eating Disorder Recovery: How One Woman Found Freedom, HealthyPlace. Retrieved on 2020, July 5 from https://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/tvshowblog/2010/12/eating-disorder-recovery-how-one-woman-found-freedom