Letting Go of Fear
My recovery is mostly about letting go of fear. In fact, fear produces most all my insane moments. Any time I need a reality check, I try to stop and ask myself if there is a fear at the root of what I'm doing:
Fear of failure, fear of loneliness, fear of intimacy, fear of risk, fear of pain, fear of abandonment, fear of rejection, fear of looking/sounding stupid, fear of what someone might think, fear of punishment, fear of poverty, fear of exploitation, fear of missing the big chance.
These are the fear demons I've identified in myself so far.
If I know when I'm acting from fear, or about to act from fear, then I can usually let go of the fear and remain in the calm center. For me, recovery works when this "check-up" is my first response to a fear producing situation.
If the fear overwhelms me, or I miss the cue and act out of fear, my life gets unmanageable.
What sometimes helps me identify fear are the emotions it produces in me: Anger and Self-pity (helplessness)
If anger is the corresponding emotion, I know I need to detach my "self" from who or what is causing the fear and the anger. I return to Step One and admit powerlessness.
If distress or worry is the corresponding emotion, I know I need to let go of the fear, accept (which sometimes includes facing the fear), and quit focusing on feeling sorry for myself, or wishing someone or something would rescue/help me out of the fearful situation. I return to Step Three and reliance upon my Higher Power to show me how to take care of/help myself or regain trust that what is worrying me will be taken care of by my Higher Power.
Fear is always, for me, the opposite of trust (faith) that my Higher Power is big enough and powerful enough to see me through any situation. When I doubt that God is big enough, I try to become my own higher power, and that's when serenity and sanity fly out the window.
For me, serenity is the reality that God is always there for me, always available. It's my responsibility to remember I am not alone; I am one with God and God has a plan and a will for my life, even in the fearful moments.
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Staff, H. (2008, December 23). Letting Go of Fear, HealthyPlace. Retrieved on 2021, October 20 from https://www.healthyplace.com/relationships/serendipity/letting-go-of-fear