If you want the rainbow...

Dolly Parton once said; "If you want the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain." How true that is. it seems that no matter what it is in life, you gotta give a little to get a little and sometimes you have to give a lot to get a little back. I went through hell for years fighting with depression, low self-esteem, and  using self injury to cope, all to get to the place I am now. It's a Fabulous place where I am, it's this place I like to call, Sane.  Not to say that before I was insane, or crazy or anything like that, but at time it felt that way. I was so depressed that I never thought I would live to see 30, now I'm almost 36, I even put money in my 401k, which like everyones elses in the country is not doing all that well, but I keep doing it because I have something now that I didn't have way back when... it's a little thing called HOPE. That's right, I have Hope.

Hope is the one thing that you can have and it doesn't cost you anything. But it gives a great return. It helps you to smile when those around you frown. It helps you get out of bed when your brian says turn off the alarm and roll over. It gets you through the day when 10 minutes feels like an hour. It helps you get what you want in life, and cost you nothing. But if you lose it, you have lost a lot, but it is never gone for good. Just like the Rainbow, it sometimes takes a trial or a little rain to fall, but then the Sun comes shining through the drops and bam there it is the sing of a promise that you will make it another day with a little help from your hope.