What Does a PTSD Flashback as a Body Memory Feel Like?

July 22, 2019 Beth Avery

Flashbacks are one of the main symptoms of posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD), but many people haven't heard of a PTSD body memory flashback. I experience PTSD body memory flashbacks. Here's what they feel like.

Along with nightmares, movies and TV shows frequently use flashbacks to demonstrate the challenges of a character suffering from PTSD. From Chris Lyle's flashback-fueled meltdowns in American Sniper to Charlie's emotional memories in the Perks of Being a Wallflower, flashbacks are often the first symptom to come to mind when people discuss PTSD.

I first started getting PTSD body memory flashbacks when I was in college. Because my trauma lasted for so long, my flashbacks have been unique. I don't have a single, full-picture memory that plays out in my head as you see in movies. There are certain memories I experience in this way, but a lot of my traumatic memories are tucked away in my mind. Like many victims of child abuse, I have trouble remembering the details of my younger years. 

Since there are a lot of holes in my childhood memories, I experience my flashbacks through body memories instead. Body memories can be described as somatic memories expressed through physiological changes to the body.1 Put simply, my body feels what it was feeling at the time of the traumatic event.

How a Body Memory Presents Itself 

It differs depending on the trigger but my flashback body memories usually start with a hot flash. My body begins to sweat, my heart picks up speed, and small noises around me grow louder and louder. I get this sick feeling in my stomach that is similar to nausea but better described as the feeling of pure panic, like waking up and realizing you slept through an exam. My triggers for a body memory flashback can be anything from an angry tone of voice to the sound of a punching bag being hit at my gym.

For a long time, I wasn't aware that I was experiencing body memories. The feelings I get during these flashbacks are very similar to the ones I get during a panic attack. It was--and is--hard to distinguish the two symptoms from each other. My therapist eventually helped me see the connection, and understanding my body memory flashbacks has helped me understand my trauma better overall.

Dealing with Body Memories as Flashbacks

In a strange way, body memories help validate what I went through. The way I feel during a flashback is the same way I felt as a young girl trapped in a violent household with no way to escape. Remembering how I felt during my childhood helps me have empathy towards myself and respect for my healing journey.

Dealing with body memory flashbacks in the present can be difficult. The best way I have found to cope so far is to give myself space. My trauma happened at the hands of other people, so getting away from people is the first thing I do when I start to feel an episode happening. Going somewhere quiet and cool to let the body memory pass helps me calm down faster.

Everybody experiences flashbacks differently, and the way you cope with yours will be unique to you. While they can be painful reminders of your trauma, it is possible to learn how to live with them. Pay attention to how you feel during a flashback and give yourself what you need during that moment. Above all, be compassionate towards yourself. Self-love and self-acceptance are the first steps toward a peaceful life. 

Have you experienced body memory flashbacks? What do they feel like to you? Leave your comments below.


  1. Bhattacharya, S., "The Lifelong Cost of Burying Our Traumatic Experiences." New Scientist, November 2014. 

APA Reference
Avery, B. (2019, July 22). What Does a PTSD Flashback as a Body Memory Feel Like?, HealthyPlace. Retrieved on 2024, July 20 from

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June, 14 2023 at 5:18 pm

I can totally relate to the way you describe your body memory flashbacks. I just discovered in 2022 that I have cptsd. Everytime I saw something that heavily reminded me of my ex and all the pain, anger, sadness, betrayal, unworthiness, rejection, abanndonment that I felt. I would get a hot flash out of the blue, heart beating super fast, short breath, my brains become pretty much inaccessible and I just try to survive whatever intensity is happening in that moment. Inside my body it's an unpleasant firework festival.
My therapist told me to stop and take a break when this happens and tend to myself, so when I'm on the bike, I would stop, and acknowledge what was happening, and comfort myself instead of rushing through it. Then she said it can also help to name what you see around you, to distract yourself and reconnect to your surroundings. It has helped me a lot. And just generally discovering what cptsd is, flashbacks etc. made me understand myself way better, while in the past I often thought I was just abnormal or crazy.

April, 25 2022 at 7:17 pm

Hi. I have a friend who suffered long term sexual abuse as a child and teenager. She now suffers from seizures. They are not epileptic. Could these seizures be a form of body memory and what is the best way to treat them. Her Counsellor’s don’t understand them.

June, 18 2023 at 2:45 pm

I had one, about a month ago. I have never had a seizure before. I was, however, in the middle of a perfect storm of various emotional events happening simultaneously, while in the middle of undergoing trauma therapy (I'm also a child sexual assault survivor). I've done quite a bit of reading through various dull medical papers, and the consensus seems to be that this can happen due to overwhelming emotional stress. You know, the sort that can occur from dealing with sexual abuse.
It's likely to be emotional flooding. I know in my case, I tried to open myself up to a memory that I wasn't fully ready to reveal, and at a time when I already had too much going on, if that makes any sense. It's still only come to me in pieces so far. I know it's the same one, since each time I see/feel it, I have the same physical sensation as the day of the seizure, just to a much lesser degree. For me, I now have the sense that the memory was rooted in the terror I felt as I understood what was about to happen again.
I don't know what is the right way to treat them, no one has yet explained that to me. But I haven't had another, so maybe what I've been doing is part of the answer. Which is to say, slowing things down a little. Trying to be gentler with myself. Writing it all down, all of it, even the things you might not want to say to anyone. Talking about it. I find that if I don't tell at least one person, at least once, that memory or feeling tends to bother me so much more for so much longer. I've learned to respect the fact that it's important to honour that pain. Don't get me wrong, all this is difficult for me, I want to plough ahead and find all the answers. I want to do all the work now, thank you very much. But our minds need a bit gentler approach than that, as evidenced by the fact that we had to hide all this stuff away in the first place.
I know that this is almost a year old, perhaps too old to be of use to your friend, but hopefully someone out there might find it useful all the same. We're not alone, even if it feels like it.

March, 31 2022 at 9:34 am

This is really helpful.

September, 12 2019 at 10:07 pm

I treated trauma symptoms with alcohol for many years, until I quit drinking a year and a half ago. For the first year I went through phases of dissociation on and off, some lasting as long as two weeks. As I dissociate less often, I find that I am now having a body memory flashback about once each month for the past three months. The first one was on my knees, head to floor, weeping, and shaking. The second one was lying on my side in bed and clenching up in my arms, shoulders and torso, but my legs folded up but rubbing against one another. These each lasted ten to fifteen minutes in extremis but the aftereffect lasted days. Hypervigilance, certain colors (red, especially) seemed to be everywhere. The most recent was today and I was able to remain standing while my upper body clenched and shook, arms pressed to sides, fists clenched. I was able to get some tissue, I was able to put the kettle on. Afterward I went to the psychologist and by tonight I feel somewhat at peace, as if the body is learning which chemical to send out to soothe and exhaust me. At last. I am hopeful that the body is finally starting to heal after so many assaults.

August, 6 2019 at 10:06 pm

Most times I'm unaware while it is happening. I'll just feel an extremely overwhelming fear, pain, grief, guilt, and sadness. Then my eyes will just start pouring. There's no clear image and I start shaking and sweating. Its the most terrifying thing during school. People try to help or ask what's wrong but they can't help but think I'm weird. To be honest the worst is when I'm doing anything slightly more than friendly with someone it triggers me and I freeze. I don't say yes, no, or stop just freeze. It has caused for me to be assaulted three times more than before my original trauma. I can't even be in a relationship at this point.

August, 9 2019 at 11:50 am

Hi, thanks for sharing your experience. I'm sorry you're struggling like this. I definitely recommend talking to a therapist about it--my counselor has really helped me understand my own body memories better. I know it's tough, but you can get through this with time!

July, 29 2019 at 5:55 am

Hi Beth
Thanks for this.
I've been having this for about 15 years since I experienced a series of traumatic events when I was 14.
It's taken me such as long time to start to make sense of my flashbacks because they often don't come with a clear video or picture in my mind, rather a feeling of terror and pain that freezes my body as I interpret this as 'the world is ending', which is what I thought back then.
I'm just learning how to describe and share this experience with friends, family and professionals. It has been a painful, confusing journey but I'm very thankful to now be piecing it together and able to share, as I'm getting a lot of warmth and understanding from others even if they haven't experienced anything like it.

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